“The main reason I used or abused drugs has suddenly occurred to me.  I had become so broken and beaten down in spirit.  I felt so bad about myself and I had become so totally withdrawn and paranoid.

Therefore going out in public or being around others made me nervous and my low self esteem gave me the idea that I needed “a little help.”  It got to the point where I did not want to be aware of anything after awhile.

Now that I feel good about myself again, the comfortable awareness I have (which used to be scary) is now my new best friend.”